I once saw a picture of myself that my daughter took that was so devastating it drove me to take action. It wasn’t the way I looked that bothered me so much, even though I looked like an overweight, tired mom of two for sure. Losing weight wasn’t a vanity metric for me at the start. What I saw, or didn’t see, which is what became most important to me. It was the sparkle. The sparkle had died in my eyes and I could see it plain as day in that photo. That even though I had attained what I thought was the peak of adulthood, I was drowning inside. I had gotten a masters degree, gotten married, been promoted, had two children and purchased a beautiful family home anyone would be happy to live in, but I wasn’t happy.
It was then that I realized that success for me came in the form of growth. And in that photo I had lost the one thing that kept me thriving, which was the desire for more. But more for me wasn’t a new car, a new home, or a better vacation. More for me was more energy, more creative projects, and more personal developmental and growth. When I had my babies time stood still, as it should. I dove into motherhood ready to tackle all the things. I learned how to care properly for babies, then toddlers, and now school aged kids. But somewhere in between changing diapers, feeding my kids and doing the laundry, I lost track of me.
I used to work out and find time to play with my friends, but now everything in my life circled around work and kids. There was no planning of anything for my self development. I had even gotten a job where the typical conference a year wasn’t even an option. I was stagnant and needed a complete overhaul of focus so I could be more. Because you can’t pour from an empty cup, and in this moment my cup was empty. I was out of gas and needed to take a moment to reevaluate how to move forward.
What I started with was nutrition. I realized that my energy was not what it used to be, and in order to feel better I was going to have to fuel myself better. The very next day, I vowed to eat only single ingredient foods. I cut out all the packaged foods and went back to if it didn’t come out of the ground, off a tree, or from an animal on land or at sea, I’m not eating it! And I stuck to that every day for six months straight.
It wasn’t always easy, but it was worth it. I began to feel the inflammation come off of my joints. At the time, I suffered from a lot of tailbone and lower back pain and I noticed that as time went by, I felt less and less joint pain. I also added a freshly squeezed lemon to my water every day, and I think this too helped with inflammation and joint pain. I also noticed that I wasn’t getting sick. I typically would get what my kids picked up from daycare, but I was flying by the winter season without a cold in sight.
After a few weeks of eating Whole Foods I started to add more movement into my day. I was having more energy from the food I was fueling my body so it felt pretty natural to add walking in. I started with walking for a half an hour a day non negotiable. That was pretty easy to accomplish and by two weeks, I had upped it to sixty minutes of walking every day. That was more difficult, but I did that for a few weeks before I remembered the fitness AP on my phone for my watch had sent me some workouts that I could follow if I paid $9.99 every month. Now that’s the cheapest gym membership I ever had, so I signed up and I used the dumb bells I already had in my basement. I had five pound dumb bells, 8 pound dumb bells and a 20 pound dumbbell set. I realized really quick i needed to purchase 15 pound dumb bells, so I bought some of those and I was set! The workouts consisted of using full body weight with the dumbbells. They were full body workouts and I did them every other day, no exception, and that is when things started to change.
The weight began to fall off my body and by month three I was already down thirty pounds! I was at a place in my life where I wasn’t eating well and moving my body and the inflammation was really high. I was carrying a lot of water weight, and the movement mixed with the Whole Foods allowed my body to drop the weight pretty quickly in the beginning. And that win on the scale is what motivated me to keep going. Once I had taken off a lot of the water weight, it was time to build some real muscle and the twenty pound dumb bells weren’t cutting it any longer. I needed to either purchase an at home gym, or join a gym so I could stay consistent in my gains. I eventually decided on Anytime Fitness to meet my needs. It was close to my house and had all of the heavy weights that I needed.
I easily picked up a routine of working out at Anytime Fitness on my lunch break. Over the next few months I ended up losing a total of fifty pounds. All from eating real food and lifting heavy weights. I was in the best shape I had been in a decade and I was full of energy. I had added in supplements and could work all day, workout at lunch , and run around with my kids until bed time. All without getting sick or even a pulled muscle. By showing up for myself every day, even when it was difficult, I created a lasting routine that I still am using today.
I had lost the weight, but more than that I had gained back the sparkle I had been missing. The little piece of me that reminded me that my thoughts, and my dreams are just as important as everyone else’s. That year I went on to get my motorcycle license and purchased a motorcycle. I made a bucket list of plans that I wished to accomplish and I am still working on this list today. Heck, even this blog is a result of a bucket list item that I am working on. To become a better writer and connect with a community of people, just like me. To keep the spark alive, to learn, create and find my joy.
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I believe in you!
We got this!
Sandra Alynn

